Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Answered

What I craved;
What I sought
satisfied.

Now,
Heart, Mind
coincide.
Together, unanimous say
NO! Defy!

A path
dark and bleak awaits.
path few take.

was the truth,
now a lie,
a mask of uncertainty
points the way to
distance.

Away for so long
feelings dying.
write to me,
hope of restoration,
cannot bloom.

this adventure,
I bid thee farewell;
Road not finished;
pull over, stray,
unwilling to continue.

Revisit that old memory;
no story so cruel.
down that road,
my feet rooted
resisting temptation
unable to walk.

End defined.
Guidance given.
Roads diverge.
Happily say hello,
My dear,
Happily I now say GoodBye.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

as the day breaks
morning dew glistens
rainbow in mist
reminscint of yesterday's rain

tears still fall
mind still travels
where it not longer wishes to go
led by a chain
deeply connected

as mind drifts
eyes cloud
the day turns to night
forever in that shadowy mist
of yesterday's plight


Saturday, April 4, 2009

Gatsby struggle

Heart cringes, brows furrowed
head in hands
hair pushed back
desparation.

This place was...
where we last spoke
where we last touched
where you last looked in my eyes
an image slowly fading

a tear rolls down my cheek
brush it away
smear of memories past
wet
the sun will come out to dry
soon.

hopefully...soon.

Throat choaked, eyes well
I refuse
emotions like waves
crash against the levy
heart constrained
mind fighting to maintain peace

Still I put on that facade each morning
acting like I no longer care
like my heart no longer
dreams of you
longs for you

Lie after lie
I convince...
no one.

Longingly I look at the stars
slow pulsating red light atop
that unreachable tower
a reminder of my Gatsby struggle

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Invisible

Eyes meet, you turn away
ignore that quick glance
forget old times
nonexistent

Ephemeral memories
wisps of smoke in the wind
what we were
drops of disappearing blood
in a river of tears
a deep wound
cut in to the heart

Approach, turn away
a game of fear
avoidance of another
you see me
right through me
a mirage

Another path followed
Friendship bloomed,
Temptation ruined
led to believe
falsity of love
misreading cursed
intentions denied
once again.

What we were
broken pieces scatter the ground
shattered image of life
rebuilt, smashed
left a lonely soul
no warmth, no comfort

The day wanes
sun sets, beautiful horizon
two people part
no longer staring with envy
I sleep, a new day comes

As I stand invisible
understand finale
the game has finished
adventure closes
not happily ever after
but, still, the end.




Train Station

eyes cloud, the wind blows
mortal flesh releases the soul
tenderly into the night
allowing it to reminisce...

I see her standing there
alone as usual.
heads turn, eyes meet
one fleeting instant,
we connect.
our opaque bubble.
her presence magnified.
eyes of comfort,
smile of joy,
this brief moment of bliss.
hello.
goodbye.
my sweet cherie...

I keep walking,
path of dying grass
among the green
marks the common route
never to swerve.

Pray!
run to my side!
just one minute
converse.

Routine unbroken,
with heavy sigh,
force my eyes
to keep looking
ahead.

Fear turning around,
reveal you looking
longing for company
I cannot give.

So I walk away,
follow that path
of brown grass
among the green.
one foot following the other.

A hand grabs hold,
what could this be?
heart stops, head turns
surprise
her.

Eyes clear.
Station platform,
one foot off.
Train flies by.
she saved my life.

Eyes meet, bodies touch
warm embrace, souls converse
My name is....